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Want To Be Wanted

When you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin 'round
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And my friend gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind and we both cried
(lyrics by taylor swift)

Love spelled backward is Love

after so-not-big fight with my mom, this morning she woke me up at 8 to apologize about the fight that we had last afternoon. she offered me to watch a movie. that kind of offer won't be rejected rite? so we went to plaza senayan to watch new moon. over all, it's good but i prefer the first one. but taylor lautner? he looks hotter in new moon, as you know he's doing some body treatments for this movie.







the title of this post? it has nothing to do with this post. i just take it from one of the scene of the movie.

i'm going to face the final exam on monday. you know what? i still have 8 pages of assignment about waste treatment plant waiting for me. that physics teacher is trying to kill me slowly. help! i'm dying............

midnight boredom

i got a little trouble sleeping lately. a boredom. sitting nicely in front of my notebook. watching nothing. writing nothing. thinking.......something.
i was thinking about do people really need a boyfriend/girlfriend?
it reminds me to a short conversations between Tom, Summer and McKenzie in the movie 500 days of summer.

McKenzie: So do you have a boyfriend?

Summer: No.

McKenzie: Why not?

Summer: Because I don’t want one.

McKenzie: Come on; I don’t believe that.

Summer: You don’t believe that a woman could enjoy being free and independent?

McKenzie: Are you a lesbian?

Summer: [laughing] No I’m not a lesbian. I just, don’t feel comfortable being anyone’s girlfriend. I don’t actually feel comfortable being anyone’s anything.

McKenzie: I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Summer: Really?

McKenzie: Nope.

Summer: Ok, let me break it down for you–

McKenzie: Break it down!

Summer: Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.

McKenzie: You’re a dude. [to Tom] She’s a dude!

Tom: Ok but wait–wait. What happens, if you fall in love?

Tom: What?

Summer: You don’t believe that, do you?

Tom: It’s love, it’s not Santa Claus.

summer's right. relationships are messy. people feeling's hurt. and it just ended up.

people don't need a broken heart. they need a peaceful heart.... even though they're alone.

try to get some sleep. cause tomorrow i'll have a biology test.

wish me luck. bye >>>> :D

mom's morning quote

just like the other day. my mom drove me to school this morning. we talked a lot. we talked about mom's high school friend that came to my house yesterday and how freak her friend is. we talked a lot about boys and broken heart. and there is one more thing that I should know about this life.

mom said "women are like tea bags. you never know how strong they are until you put them in hot water"

we're done

I'm a newbie

start to post a blog (again).
if you ask me: why?
the answer: I don't know. I just need someone or at least something to share.

big thanks to Ellya Nuraisyah yang telah meminjamkan gmail nya untuk dipake sama gue.

today:
pagi pagi gue udah kram otak aja gitu gara gara ulangan fisika. tapi setelah itu otak gue seger lagi denger cerita alika & stasya tentang kisah cinta mereka woooooooow I do really happy for them, beneran deh hihihihi denger mereka cerita malah gue yang girang.
hubungan stasya sama sang doi, let's called him C, laaaancccaaaarrrcaaarrrcaaarrr semenjak hp nya stasya sudah normal.
sepenggal percakapan antara stasya dan c
c: cantik kamuu..
s: wah ga nyadar banget kalo kamu ganteng
c: ngga kok, kalo kamu cantik baru bener
s: ih makasih ya ganteng
DAN SUMPAH GUE MABOK BACANYA HAHAHAHAHA

>> back to me ya :P

after broke up, sorry to say, i can say that i'm happier. udah ngga ada beban aja. emang sih ya orang bilang kan gue bakal sendirian, sepi, ngga ada orang yang rela stay on phone all night buat gue, tapi yaudalah for now gue ga butuh butuh banget kok, butuh sih tapi selama ini gue masih bisa meng-handle itu. lagian i could get better kok and him either. it's been about 2 months and i completely feel free. no day/midnight dreaming (about him) and never look at his facebook profile.

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