what are we made for

First of all, I would like to say to our friend, Nikita Putri, the victim of the last night car accident at Rasuna Sahid. May you rest in peace, our dear Nikita.

Once I read the news on detik.com. It's shaking me, and still...until I post this blog. Somehow I just feel like, that is some kind of warning for me, for us. We're getting older time to time. Our time will be less and less in every second.

Have you ever think about dying? Because that's what I'm doing right now. I am thinking about dying. How would it be like? How does it feel like leaving people you love the most? Or the worst is you are the one who has been left by the one that you love the most? Are you ready? Should we be prepared for that? We, human, are made for being prepared to leave and being left? And the funeral, have you ever think about who will be the first person that come to your funeral? And your friends, friends that you thought they're the best,would they come to your funeral? I just wondered who, the people, that will come to my funeral. My old-odd friends, would they come? Even people that I haven't got a chance meet or know each other in person would they come to my funeral?

Is it make any sense that we use our chance to live prepared to leave and being left? Because when God takes us with Him, we should be ready. And some people like me, couldn't handle that. We're too fragile. We're too easy to cry and giving up.

The last,
Even we haven't got a chance to talk to each other in person, I can see that you are a really really good person. Everybody here loves you. And I know you love them as well. And all the letters, the post, the walls on your facebook or the tweets on your twitter, you read them, right? Or maybe you're still reading them right now bcs it's too many. There are a lot of prayers for you, and there will be a lot more and more. Enjoy heaven. I wish we could get a chance to catch up, in heaven. Bye. Take care.

Love,

febbi

Selamat Hari Burung

Happy birthday, dear Franz Aditya Triestanto!

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Do you watch the clothes spin in the dryer for entertainment?
Have you put you books in your shelf in alphabetically order?
Have you memorized the cracks on your bedroom ceiling?

If you answered yes to 2 or more of these questions, then you need this guide!

Conclusion: Fail!

You: What are you going to do when I leave?

Me: Where are you going?

You: Don’t worry about it. Just what are you going to do when I leave?

Me: But you’re not going anywhere..

You: Just tell me what you’re going to do!

Me: Well if you’re going to the grocery store, then I’ll just wait for you to get back.

You: No, you’re suppose to follow me!

Me: But I can’t..

You: Yeah, this conversation doesn’t work for long-distance couples.

Conclusion: We failed!

-hearttosoul.tumblr.com

22 : 13

Today mood level: 1,5 of 10. Somehow everything seems so quite. My head. My Heart. They don't talk. Every things that come out from my mouth, it was un-thinkable. Even when I talked with you. As the matter of fact, my head and heart, they weren't there. They were running from you, from looking at your face. Bcs they lied. They lied to you. They are running to keep their secret from you. Bcs when they're looking at your face, they can barely keep their secret no more. And eyes will tell you everything.

The truth is...

I hate the way you talk to me.
I hate the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive your car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate the way you scream to people.
I hate the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it.
I hate the way you’re always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

sekolah ku sayang... handphone ku malang...

Ngga ada yang perlu di post sebenernya hari ini kecuali.... handphone gue disita sekolah. Entah seminggu atau sebulan. Sekolah gue tersayang itukan rada norak gitu jadi ngga boleh bawa hp gitu ke sekolah. Gue kurang ngerti motifnya apa ya. Kalo ketauan bawa hp untuk pertama kali sanksi nya disita seminggu. Kalo 2 kali ya sebulan. Nah seinget gue hp gue itu udah disita yang kedua kalinya. Entah deh gimana nasib gue. Untung ngga punya pacar jadi ngga repot repot amat :P

Kenapa sih kita, para murid SMA Global Mandiri Cibubur, ngga diperbolehkan membawa gadget ke sekolah? Well logically mobile phone itu gadget yang sangat berguna dan positive. Positive di bagian mana? Well let see ya, kita ngga di bolehin bawa mobile phone dan disuruh pake telfon sekolah untuk nelfon orang tua atau supir atau rumah atau siapa lah kalo ada emergency. Tapi telfon sekolah cuma ada SATU!!! Sedangkan kalo kita pulang sekolah, semua murid berebut buat minjem telfon sekolah. Masa buat minta jemput ke sekolah aja musti ngantri telfon umum dulu sih?

This time, hp gue disita karna kebodohan gue sendiri sih. Lo tau kan kalo calendar facebook suka ke sync sama calendar hp? Nah! Today temen gue ulang taun, Rendy, the boy who sit in front of me. Hp udah gue silent ya. Eh tiba tiba ditengah pelajaran physics. Bunyi aja hp gue. Jeng jeng. Emang apes. Ya mau gimana lagi. We'll see how life would be without any cellphone.

Kadang merana ngga punya pacar kaya gini ada untungnya juga kok :D

P.S Gue bosen. Sendirian. Mati yuk......

Strange is the song in our conversation - Monkey To Millionaire

Walking on the edge of an empty pool
Talking 'bout something
That we thought it was cool
We lower down our voices
We're holding our laughs
Cos the moon are standing there without a noise

You're asking 'bout a boyfriend and girlfriend thing
Into our late night conversation
You sounded like you're so interested, so I feel like
I want to share it with you

After few hours of our conversation
You told me, you only sleep when there's someone singin'
So I sing to you a song called "Strange"
Then I heard no more words
Coming out from you
Then I heard no more words
Coming out from you

"Strange" is the song in our conversation
"Strange" is the song in our conversation

Couple of stories has already been told
and few things about has already been told
You're sound so quiet so I whisper to you
Well I guess that you have found your own world yeah

Couple of stories has already been told
and few things about has already been told
You're sound so quiet so I whisper to you
Well I guess it's time to end it so I said to you
"I hope that we could talk again someday"

After few hours of our conversation
You told me, you only sleep when there's someone singin'
So I sing to you a song called "Strange"
Then I heard no more words
Coming out from you
Then I heard no more words
Coming out from you

"Strange" is the song in our conversation
"Strange" is the song in our conversation

After few hours of our conversation
You told me, you only sleep when there's someone singin'
So I sing to you a song called "Strange"
Then I heard no more words
Coming out from you
Then I heard no more words
Coming out from you

"Strange" is the song in our conversation
"Strange" is the song in our conversation

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I've read one book which i bought it about 5 years ago and never finish it until this time. It took only a day to finish it though. Book title "Travelers' Tale. Belok Kanan: Barcelona!"

Well let me give you the 'sneak peak'!

The four best-childhood-friends. They've fallen for each other since in high school and sadly, it have never been told. Retno had to say 'no' to Francis and as the matter of fact Farah falls for that guy . Make it more complicated, Jusuf can't stop falling for her (read: Farah).

They grew up and work in 4 different countries. The 'things' started when Francis sent his wedding invitation to his three best friends that will be held at Barcelona. From different countries, with a limited budget, the four of them go to Barcelona. Bring down their own missions to Barcelona: to find the answers for the unanswerable questions.

Page 144

Love just sits there....
Staring at us....
And say "you can't have me"....

love,
Febbi

sixteen candles have been lighted

how did you start your weekend?

(1) saturday. i woke up at 7 in the fucking morning. prepared things to bring bcs i was gonna start my day with my new class, as you know i took a basic figure drawing class at Lasalle College. pala gua mabok ngegambar 5 jam. so i've finished at 3.

(2) spend the rest of the day with a good friend of mine, andhika, the best one. nyusul andhika ke ratu plaza. hp nya andhika mati. gue? mau ikutan mati krn nyasar nyari tempat servisan hp nya andhika :'( next destination, plaza senayan. ketemu radith, wicak, alika (fyi alika ceritanya lagi bete sama gue gitu). lanjoooot nonton spy next door. cukup menghibur!

(3) MIDNIGHT SURPRISE! ellen nadia vania ica kerumah ngasih kue kado dan hal hal mengagetkan lainnya. we talked. a lot. a lot more and more. just the four of us, even ica tidur duluan krn gaenak badan. idungnya bocor. idung nya memproduksi lendir berlebih dari orang normal (read: pilek akut)

(4) KNOCK KNOCK! they stood and shout "happy birthday" (read: stasya ayuta jenni excel andhika boneng dedy)

(5) ANOTHER BDAY CAKE. alika ya notabene nya mau sok sok ngambek sama gua gatahan gue rasa kelamaan nyuekin gua. doi nyamperin gue brg radith wicak simon di ps dikala gue lagi makan sm ellen vania nadia. wooohhhooooo what a great day!

(6) FINISH THE DAY. say a prayer. i'm 16 now, officially. goodnight my hetero heroine!!

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I love the album. I love all of the songs. I love hayley's voice. I love the lyrics. I love them. They're just great!